War is eternity jammed into frantic minutes that will fill a lifetime with dreams and nightmares.
For a long time I thought I could deal with my anger and hostility on my own. But I couldn't. I denied that it had affected me and yet I was so frantic on the inside with other people: I needed to be constantly reassured.
For so long as the Jew has even one ally he will be convinced - in his smallness of mind - that his salvation came from that ally. It is only when he is alone - against all of his own efforts and frantic attempts - that he will through no choice be compelled to turn to G-d.